star-crossed loving.


& as our story goes.


right at the bottom of my to-do-list,

i wrote 'hope'. then i cancelled it out & wrote 'believe'. but i changed my mind and i tore up the whole sheet of paper.

cause i figured i didnt believe in magic.

when i was a hell of a lot younger,

i was insanely in love with watching magic shows. i really dont know why. i just thought that if the magician could dissapear, could fly, could do i dont know what illusions, then one day i proabably could & would do it too.

and then i learnt a magic trick on my own.

and when i realised there was really nothing magical about it all, that poof, what you see is not really what you get and that dude doing all that magic shit is really just pulling your leg,

i figured i wouldnt waste my time on believing in something that would really never occur.


just like now,

i wont waste my time on just another illusion.